beach bumming

nandito ako ngayon sa lounge ng bangkok airways sa kapitolyo. we (my two fabulous bosses and i) have just finished the first leg of our site visits to the domestic destinations of bangkok air. im tired and am looking forward to sleeping on my wonder bed but i can’t help feeling a lil weird especially when there’s this beautiful Thai lady waiting patiently for my flight back home to samui - with me.

bkt meron akong Thai lady sa tabi ko, you ask? erm.. well VIP daw kami for the whole duration of the SVs… that meant no waiting in queues, riding in golf cars in suvanabhumi and a private limo with matching tour guide to bring us around! OMG! yes yes ang cool talaga! pero medyo nakakahiya - seriously, kung ganito ka pretty yung kasama mo maiilang ka tlga. haller my hair is a ridiculous bun, my white shirt soiled with the sweets i’ve been munching on all day (btw alam niyo ba yung balakucha - SHUCKERS! meron din sila nun!) and im carrying my laptop, my cam and a ginormous plastic bag full of goodies (kasama na dun yung balakucha - ps. hi dan!)

super ganda sa sukhothai, from the airport to the old city etc… yun yung fave place ko out of all the destinations so far (pictures to follow!). i think i will go back there for about a week and do absolutely nothing even remotely close to work-related stuff.

i know i should savor this moment, baka di na mangyari ulit, haha! but i can’t help but wonder how much truth there is to what my boss said… "Kim, VIP stands for Very Impotent Person. They cannot seem to do anything by themselves."

hehehe. minsan lang naman diba? teka may pogi bang Thai ground attendant ba dito? joke joke! hi bb. love you.

(btw pogi yung flight attendant namin kagabi - at take note - nagpa picture yung mga bakla sa kanya. omg. over!)

did you guys know that YouTube is banned in Thailand? (actually the authorities didn’t do a good job coz i can still log in as long as i remove the “www” hihi!)

apparently, some fools (pro-Thaksin propagandists perhaps?) decided to desecrate HM King Bhumibol Adulyadej by accusing him of killing his brother for the throne and calling him King of the Apes. the fool even used the wrong pictures to depict his slain brother.

so Thailand called for a retraction and requested for the censorship of the derogatory remarks. YouTube replied with a clause on free speech. Thailand banned the site.

well i’ve seen the videos and even if i’m not Thai i feel disrespected for their sake. i just wish Thailand just decided to sue YouTube for all they’ve got and imprison the fools for slander and libel instead of blocking the site (unsuccesfully too if i may add).

so here i am again looking out my window, the view’s a bit different this time, not of the bright blue sea anymore but rather a sparkly - almost white serene lake… i’m listening to Anna Nalick and she’s telling me to breathe… funny because before playing the song i was fine - now… i can hardly breathe.

is it possible that normalcy and contentment is over rated? everything seems to be going as it should. pm’s back to take back some load off work. matel’s here for goodness’ sakes! no reasons to call papa to yelp about silly office stuff… my prayers were once again answered in every way and life is definitely on track. plus my laundry lady is back!

still, my mind wanders (a scary thing to do sometimes). my heart feels like its about to jump out of my chest - like i am still waiting for something, expecting something to happen. and that something should be earth shattering and mind boggling too.

recently i had the opportunity to snoop on a significantly older and accomplished lady’s CV. eek. all i’ve done so far is work with PONs and now prance around on TV like a fool. am i living my life? when alex band says “let’s make the best times of our lives” i can’t help but wonder if i’m doing just that…

now i’m freaking out. what if nothing unbelievably cool happens in my lifetime - more so - to me… am i missing out? or will that be just fine and dandy?

i remember a dialogue with my mom…

Ma, wala ba talagang papasok sa mga butas na yan? (Pointing to the vent in the ceiling)

Kim, para yan sa circulation ng air. Go to sleep. Close your eyes. (She taps on the light and closes the door)

so i lie there awake, alone in my room, psyching myself to go to sleep and constantly repeating to myself that everything is going to be okay.

geez… am i a freak show or what? well i hope you are too. ha!